Distraction at the Pool Party

Cock, Hair, and Not Quite

I've been playing, surfing and licking myself for hours. For weeks.

Those of you who have been following this journey I've been forging on this blog have noted - I started with memories of my sexual and fondly fading past, only to turn towards the present.

My sensual being (which includes but not exclusively sex) was formed in another time, in which pictures of naked people and descriptions of adult and naughty practices were more hidden. They were kept in certain bookstores, in certain hard-to-obtain magazines. There were no communities easily accessible to share, compare and leer at.

The opening up of Ryan includes not only reminiscing but feeling more comfortable doing so. The early posts, 2+ years ago, had a certain amount of confessional pain to them when I wrote, but to be out - anonymously but relieved - had a spiritual, erotic and healthy charge that motivated me to continue.

I've explored not only my own thoughts, hang-ups and desires, but other of you in the blogosphere as well. As blogs become in a way obsolete being taken over by the hit-and-run instant gratification of tumblr, I still reach out and get out-reached to people who seem to enjoy what I'm trying to get at.

Episodically, anecdotally.

Thanks for reading as I figure this out for myself - just as you all are, post by post, day by day, and partner by partner.

Celebrity Fetish

Married Mother of 4

This wife milf asked me if I would do it. And send it to her privately. I'm not the first one she's asked to do this for her.

Holiday Panties

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La Difference

Two clips, in contrast. The first, here:



--exhibits that "I Feel Myself" aesthetic of self-mediated art-film autobiography. The camera is static and deliberately, even aggressively objective. Although the camera angles shift occasionally, indicating some behind-the-scenes mediation, the subject proceeds to ignore the camera the entire clip in an attempt at anonymous objectivity. This youngish college age woman with glasses, slightly nerdy with smallish natural tits possesses a certain amount of frump is also a naturalist. She has a hairy pussy and isn't afraid to squirt and/or pee on the hardwood floors.

This is a tactile and earthy thrill in spite of its obvious intention as performance for and in front of us. Clearly "written." Clearly manufactured.

By contrast, this self-shot blur:



--has no art or avant-garde formal intention or pretension. The camera's set up so she can hornily proceed to rub her cunt in front of it. It is urgent and authentic - although the subject may be cosmetically closer to a porn star than the previous subject (whether amateur or no).

One is a display, the other a demonstration. They elicit two different responses in this viewer.

One appeals to the aesthetic eye. One appeals to the cock.

Spread

courtesy Pornofokker.

The Afternoon of the Air Show

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Performance - addendum

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Fidelity

If you don't take off your panties, can I rub up against you?

You don't have to show me your pussy. I won't put my cock inside you. I won't finger your clit. Just lay down and just rub against you. Your ass looks so sexy.

You don't have to suck my cock. Let me just see your beautiful ass. You get me excited just laying there.

I'm gonna come. Rub against me. See - don't pull down your pants. Feel my spunk shoot.

All over you. Feel it? I won't even ask you to clean me off.

I'll lick it off your back by myself.

Does Your Husband Know We're Jerking Off To Your Naked Pussy?

And that's why she turns the webcamera on herself.

Feeling horny, usually by herself and not in the company of her man, her husband, her boyfriend, her significant whoever - the burning flame of new passion having become quenched over the years - she downs her pants and exposes her self to strangers.

It's a legal, safe and anonymous version of stripping for the customers, of flashing the other students on Spring Break. On the anonynet no one has to go to school with you tomorrow. Your innocence (or lack thereof) is protected and discussed outside your own social group.

And when you reveal that stream, the comments begin to drop. Viewers from all over start to ping you back. "Nice pussy, baby." "Take off your top." "Will you ever be in Baltimore and come see me?"

The response from strangers is immediate, without strings, in completely appropriate context and overwhelmingly positive. They love watching your pussy. Even if you've gained some weight. Even if the house hasn't yet been picked up. They aren't asking you where's dinner, or why the clothes aren't folded, or to stop spending money on cat food.

You get to be sexual with a stranger, and hear the leering look in their words as they desire you and pull out their hard cocks. They don't even care if you're married - in fact it turns them on. You're so fucking horny you don't care who knows it. "Does your husband know we're all jerking off to your naked pussy?"




Responding for the masses.

Performances

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