Reflection

I've received some emails (offline, not in the comments) that have asked me more deeply about my exhibitionist practice here. How I've felt about exposing myself (physically and emotionally), what made me do it... and even in more than once case, can they join me?

People are really supportive; they like to watch. I like to be watched. It's something I knew early in my sexual development. There was a sense of role play in getting naked with someone, the anticipation and sense of fun leading up to the sweaty sticky act.

The lead-in, the teases, the jokes, the declarations, were all so very much a part of the turn-on for me.

I like to put on a show, but never really had much opportunity to put it on for more than one person. I think would have liked to try to be in a room with another couple, trading each others genital contact, the kisses, the fingering. Not sure that will ever happen. And here, in public (sort of) I get a chance to pull down my pants and wave my hard dick around.

I'm glad some of you like it. It's a turn-on for me, and makes me feel closer to feelings I've often had to repress. For social reasons, of course; for propriety.

I appreciate the feedback.

People ask me if I would ever consider posting pictures of my wife on here. This isn't her thing, I don't think. The closest I've come is describing bouts of sex, what I've done with her, what she's done with me. While that will remain private between us in actuality, the spirit of these happenings I share in another attempt to expose myself, to be vulnerable. Truthful and maybe a little bit naughty. Hey look what I did.

One aspect interesting to this whole social experiment is that the people that want to reach out to me and talk... do so offline, by email one to one. Even though what seems to be capturing our imaginations is the sharing and public aspect of this conversation, when someone wants to let me know I'm writing something that's tickling their good part, they don't post a comment.

They want to tell me straight. There's still a need to say something privately, personally, intimately and honestly.

Doing it out in public has its own honesty, but its not earned so much as dared.